Some days just feel like WAY to much work to even bother getting out of bed. I set my alarm to wake up to take my activated charcoal in the middle of the night (1 hour before or 3 hours after any supplements or meds) and ended up pressing snooze every hour about 4 times. My body was literally so heavy that I couldn’t even fathom the idea of forcing my body to move, let alone swallow a whole glass of water and activated charcoal powder.
Anyways, so I ended up getting up at 6 am, taking it, and went back to sleep. It literally took me 2 hours in my bed to put “mind over matter” to the test and force my butt up. I have so much to do every single day and it is all to try to get better. Today the thought of brushing my teeth, washing my face, scraping my tongue, oil pulling, filling my water bottle, eating breakfast and taking meds is just way to much. I honestly don’t want to do any of it. My body is really aching today and I already have a headache. My limbs feel heavy.
But I ask myself this, what is the alternative? I promised myself I would track this journey step by step and I promised myself I would do everything in my power to get better. It is not easy…and nobody ever told me that it was…but I want this…I want to be vibrant and full of life again.
So I dig very very deep and I force myself to keep fighting and not give into my aching body. After all it isn’t my body speaking, it is the foreign invaders in it crying for help, and if I lay down …I am enabling them to be stronger than I am. I want them to die off and be removed from my body. That’s why I do this.